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Weird - I had to drop out of Avengers crossover bigbang as an authour because my first idea wasn't going to make 5K, and my second (my Iron Man/Full Metal Panic! fusion, War Child, which I really will get around to finishing at some point! I have it nearly all plotted out now!) wasn't even going to have the first part finished in time. So I signed up as an artist instead, and even as a pinch-hitter... and both my authors dropped out. (gloom) One couldn't finish their fic due to Hurricane Sandy-caused powercuts, the other... well, I'm not really sure why, I was told personal reasons (which is fair enough; after all, they're personal). Both authours were fine with my posting, since I'd already finished (and to be honest? they had better have been!) I'm going to go ahead. The titles and authors of each fic are mentioned on the front covers, so if you want to keep an eye out for the fics when they're finished and posted somewhere you can.

One of the main reasons I wanted to post these so badly is that I did a lot more finessing with the covers than usual, and I'm sort of proud of myself for producing more sophisticated artwork than I normally do (there's a reason I always specify I'll be producing fanmixes when I sign up as an artist!)

The links to the zip files (at mediafire) are:

Sweep the ashes at mediafire

All the ghosts that are never gonna catch me at mediafire

('Sweep the Ashes' is character-arc based, no spoilers; 'All the ghosts' is meant to be a straight soundtrack, so specific story details will be mentioned in the tracklisting. Both are Avengers movieverse crossed with The Bourne Legacy, so there will be spoilers for that movie as well; probably nothing you couldn't have picked up from the trailers though.)

sweep the ashes FRONT

sweep the ashes BACK

Sweep the Ashes

A fanmix for SAUADE (STILL, YOU DO NOT ANSWER) by mizzy2K

It’s weird, really – just a week or so before I did this, I was telling the most recent author I made a soundtrack for that I never do straight fanmixes for stories – it’s always soundtracks. Then I was assigned this story, and I was a little worried – because how easy is it to find eight song-worthy incidents in a 5K fic? To make matters worse, I found that the usual thought process wasn’t happening. While puzzling over this, I realized that I had no less than four songs tentatively from Marta’s POV, and hit on the idea of simply doing mini-arcs of character POV songs. Then it came so easily, I had the whole tracklist in about an hour!

As for the covers; I was suddenly SO thankful for my habit of randomly saving any pics that look like I might use them later; the pic of Renner partially reflected in the window was perfect, showing the partial past self coming to the surface. I finally worked out how to use the color bar on the windows picture manager, and did my best to make the pic of Marta and Aaron colorless and faded, and amped up the Clint and Natasha pic (and on the back cover, the single shot of Natasha) as vividly colored and bright as I could without ruining the pic; like the half-blown match, it’s meant to symbolise the fading of Aaron (and his relationship with Marta) as opposed to the full, vibrant life Clint leads with Natasha.


I’m Not Over – Carolina Liar
I'm not over
I'm not over you just yet
Cannot hide it
You're not that easy to forget
I'm not over

Ghost – Indigo Girls
Unknowing captor you'll never know how much you
Pierce my spirit but I can't touch you
Can you hear it a cry to be free
Oh I'm forever under lock and key
As you pass through me

Now I see your face before me; I would launch a thousand ships
To bring your heart back to my island as the sand beneath me slips
I burn up in your presence, and I know now how it feels
To be weakened like Achilles, with you always at my heels

This bitter pill to swallow is the silence that I keep
It poisons me, I can't swim free, the river is too deep

Heroes & Thieves – Vanessa Carlton
Well I'm stubborn and wrong,
But at least I know it
I keep movin' along
Until I can get through this
But maybe this song is the best I can do it
Well it seems like I'm getting closure somehow
A flicker of peace that I finally found

(Instrumentals seemed particularly appropriate, given that it’s all about him, but he doesn’t really DO anything during the story)

Wake the Dead – A Perfect Circle (Ins)

Ghosts of a Future Lost – Clint Mansell and Kronos quartet (ins)

The Hollow (take 1 / acoustic) – A Perfect Circle

Cause it's time to bring the fire down
Bridle all this indiscretion
Long enough to edify
And permanently fill this hollow


Someone to Talk To – The Devlins (after the bar-fight)
I watch your eyes across the room
And I see how much they've changed
From what I knew
Things seem so different now
In your life
But I never wanted more that you could find
And it took me so long
It took me so long
It took me so long
To find myself someone to talk to

Your Ex-Lover is Dead – Stars (Natasha to Marta)
It's nothing but time and a face that you'll lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard, I'll send you the news
From the house down the road, from real love

Live through this and you won't look back
Live through this and you won't look back
Live through this and you won't look back

You and Me of the 10,000 Wars – Indigo Girls (She can’t be sorry that he’s Clint now. She wouldn’t be sorry even if she could.)
After the battle and we're still around
Everything once up in the air has settled down
Sweep the ashes let the silence find us
A moment of peace is worth every war behind us.
You and me of the 10,000 wars.

all the ghosts FRONT

all the ghosts BACK


A Soundtrack for ‘They’ve given you a number and taken away your name’ by Julorean

Kill – Jimmy Eat World (opening credits)
Well, you're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will

Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be?

Now’s the Only Time I Know – Fever Ray (Aaron decides to come in, & ‘approaches’ SHIELD.)
Dark brown hair and eyelash
Reappear in a flash

Now's the only time I know

Early morning's greatest deed
What's forsaken I do not need

Running - Evermore (leaving the baggage behind & remaking himself, this time solely by his own choice.)
I feel I could
And I know I should
Step away, turn around
Let my feet hit the ground

You don't need a broken heart
To know a heart can be broken
You just need to open your eyes
We don't need to be deceived
To know a lie can be spoken
We don't have to learn everything twice

Sooner or Later – Switchfoot (Fury vs Byer. No guesses as to who won THAT little face-off!)
Come back and haunt me
Follow me home
Give me a motive
Swallow me whole

Prelude 12/21 – AFI (Clint is captured and interrogated by HYDRA. Not the brightest move on their part.)
This is what I brought you, this you can keep,
This is what I brought, you may forget me.
I promise to depart, just promise one thing,
Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.

Counting bodies like sheep (to the rhythym of the war drums) – A Perfect Circle
(Natasha and Steve survey the damage to the HYDRA base)
Counting bodies like sheep
To the rhythm of the war drums

Count the bodies like sheep

Go back to sleep
Go back to sleep

Independent Slaves – Days of the New
(Clint vs Byer. And at this point I’m guessing Byer wishes he’d never even heard of Blackbriar.)
The stop is now, the slaves are all behind me
I took a step ahead, I did it all myself
By the power invested in me
I got out of bed this week
Now I am good at what I do

The Ghost of You – My Chemical Romance (The Briefing for the Avengers)
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

Cold – Emilie Autumn (Clint falls ill from Extremis...)

Perfect Circle – Katie Melua (Natasha’s POV during Clint’s illness)
NOTE: I hadn’t actually read this part of the fic yet, so I’m more or less guessing.

Why am I fighting, what's it for,
Must let my mask drop to the floor.
My scars I shouldn't hide from the people who are on my side,
Rolling up my sleeves to fight against,
All the things I locked up and all the things I fenced.
But it's time to let it out so we can build a brand new castle.

And even when I'm walking straight I always end up in a perfect circle.
Oh I try but I just can't wait,
To break out of this perfect circle.

Skillet - Rebirthing (...only to emerge re-born once more)
I lie here lifeless
In this cocoon
Shedding my skin cause
I'm ready to
I wanna break out
I found a way out
I don't believe that it's gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In this womb I'm suffocating

Feel your presence filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in
I've died

Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love wanna live for you and me
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now

Chase this light – Jimmy Eat World (end credits)
I know, it's alive and somewhere for us to find,
Tonight, oh chase this light with me.

A movie, still photograph,
Through a martyr's eyes can I see,
I've seen the best of love, the best of hate, the best reward is earned,
And I've paid for every single word I ever said.

Confetti rainfall in a quiet streets.
The beauty is in what you make it,
So get up on your feet.

BONUS (not set to a specific moment in the story)

Tell Her This – Del Amitri (Aaron and Marta’s theme)
Tell her not to cry
I just got scared that's all
Tell her I'll be by her side, all she has to do is call
Tell her what was wrong
I sometimes think too much
But say nothing at all

Uncanny – Anberlin (Clint and Natasha’s theme)
I'm convinced, oh, that you're right
You're right where you belong,
Beside me, to remind me
Did you ever think this far behind me
You would see the world for what it was
And who we really were
Oh they love us American boys

Anywhere, say anywhere
As long as I'm with you
Anything, ask anything
We'll watch the world go by
Anywhere, say anywhere
As long as I'm with you
Anything, ask anything
We'll watch the world

Hope you like them!
Tags: avengers (movieverse), fanmix, ficathon

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